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I got harassed in school from second grade on.I had no peace.
I am trans-gender and bi and I got and beaten for it. I was taunted with the word Dyke and I dated no one.I would not dare. I was teased about my clothes, my hair, even my teeth, and how I spoke.I was teased about my religion and sent to the principal over it,I was pagan in the late 70's.I was teased about my feline affinity. I was teased and ganged up on relentlessly the bus was a torture chamber.I tried to kill myself many times to escape the hell I lived everyday.
One day I thought I'd conform,fit in..I dressed like a typical teen in the 70's I even feathered my hair put on make up looked every inch a"normal""girl" and I felt like a clown.It was horrid to walk around in such an unnatural way and it did not stop the assaults and teasing. Teachers looked the other way when stuff happened to me right under their noses. but yet when they'd meet for parent teacher conferences they'd cry to my mom about what they saw me go through(I found out about this years later from mom)And still they did nothing.
Now I know there are people here who would say to me 'get over it' and move on,it was years ago.But I can't live in such denial of this.The scars still hurt and I cannot lay down separate everything I feel into compartments so some person can feel secure, and let this pervasive bully problem in the very fabric of our culture go unchallenged. My heart is torn open and the scars triggered when I see Bush swagger on TV to put gay bashing into the Constitution,or when I hear asshole Falwell blame 9/11 on gays, pagans and all.
It's the same mindset of the old bully boys in school who were enforcing conformity than who are now in charge of this nation now and they still hate me and my kind. And yes I am outraged.And I'm not standing by and pretending things changed when they haven't really in fact they are worse.These pigs are in power and making laws to make my life less free and safe.
For too long as a society we the let hate of the stronger dominate,silence,destroy the weaker or different parts of our'society' because the bullies assume they can-do it and get away with it.There are parents who think smacking their kid to teach them a lesson is OK,and cannot-will not see that threats hitting etc is all designed to instill fear of the stronger bigger person in the smaller person. This is bullying! Every bully who intimidates threatens or hits in fact issues a dominance challenge to the person they abused. Bullies are in essence assuming they are entitled,by default because they don't like you or your kind,to hit you, abuse you,ruin your life,and put their own mental toxins into you(which comes out as suicide,self loathing,blind conformity, fear or horrible self esteem etc.) and traumatize you.
The challenge is to not let the bully get away with forcing his domination onto you ~ Take it personally... If one person can't overcome a bully alone,than a bystander who has compassion for the'weaker'or different, who does want tyranny in society really has a moral imperative to their own community and relationships to assist the victim and stop/deescalate/restrain/shame/call police or even kill the abuser. (depending on the severity of the assault and the willingness of the abuser to stop doing it)
But we don't encourage this kind of self/other defense,in a personal way in our day to day lives in our culture.We put it off,ignore it,tell the victim to get over it,or conform, we are scared to interfere,we don't intervene. Why?
When we ignore abuse we give the bully permission to let it escalate . Eventually we call the law or social services to handle it. By than the victim is a wreck emotionally.The damage is done.
In our culture the bully is not seen for what an asshole he is.It's because too many people are guilty,fascinated and scared and don't want to see a bully as a bully choosing to abuse innocent,different or weaker people.Because we don't call a bully what he is,he is allowed to exploit and trample others,ruin their lives,hurt their bodies and scar their emotions at will,Bullies will bully others as long as no one complains or fights back.
The state uses bullies and child abuse as an unspoken way to reinforce social "norms" often of the Judeao-Christian variety that keep all people from finding freedom,adventure and happiness in this life. I know that is a controversial statement,It will offend many parents raising their kids as their parents taught them but think please.. Just look at the effects abuse has on forcing cultures "deviants"and creative people to conform into something they are not..How many gay kids hide in the closet for fear of fathers rage or rejection? And isn't father reinforcing an oppressive social"norm"with his ignorance and misuse of parental authority to make his child be someone he cannot be to please himself and 'fit in' with social norms he was taught are so important and never had to question?
How many people are angry as Rush Limbaugh,Ann Coulter and hate radio.How many by stand and mutter amongst each other and will not picket the hate stations or walk in on Rush's/Ann's show and take the Mic out of their hands and tell them they are bullies to their respective faces on the air? No we argue over politics,who said what, and never get down to the roots,of this hate which is abuse.
Misery,strife and insecurity are very profitable to keep up(just think of profits of diet aids,antidepressants,and tooth whitening gel sales)
This bully culture we have is why we all MUST watch out for each other's safety and well being.Those of us who can live and let live,who want to cooperate need to shame abusers for their abusive acts no matter who they are,and force them to evolve out of their conduct disorders and feel ashamed for their domination and sadism.WE need to rip off that mask of sanity they wear.This is why we must not by stand,and instead stand up for our rights to be who we are no matter what parents,bullies,politicians,religionists,or ANYBODY else thinks.
Freedom is not going to be really free as long as any bully is determining what you should be-and how you must live-or else. Democracy,equality human rights and peace cannot be had in a community with a tyrant,bully or asshole messing relations up in it. Tyrants,control freaks,elitists,haters,bullies, dominator's and abusers and those who do not live and let live, who seek to bully others or 'teach them lessons' to not be who they are, are incompatible with any egalitarian,democratic free civil society.
I feel eventually the attacks on "our kind" will force liberals to give up nit picking over issues and find their solidarity,it will come to the point where all distinctions,gay,poor,obese,black,transgendered,woman,handicap,mentally ill,etc.will merge into a big disenfranchised people category,and it will be the same kind of domineering bully network of swaggering hateful people looking to force 'norms' or their own hegemony in a group who are doing the abuses that will oppose our self actualization,happiness, our peace security and safety in our lives.
This is the real culture war the bullies are itching for,smear the queer,whap a geek, beat the bitch,burn a witch,kill a crip,lock up the nuts and torture them,and smack the snot nosed little brats ..etc. And teach us all a lesson,that might makes right and how dare we evolve and break free from this rigid social domination system.
Bullies are not so fragmented in whom they hate, really as long as they have someone else to dump their insecurities frustrations and mental toxins into,they'll do it >They use anyone they can call themselves superior to,they are clearer as to whom they hate and they always seem to hurt the same sorts of people.
Some people never learned might does not make right.Who knows why they have conduct disorders? Who cares? Either way,somebody has got to teach them to feel and understand why it is wrong to abuse others.If they will not get along,or live and let live, what's wrong with taking them out? They made their decision if they refuse to stop abusing,so what is wrong with meeting their domination challenges and saying NO like you mean it?
In school I got together with several outcasts like myself. We were all hated for different reasons ,and life was hell for all of us .We made an alliance we defended each other from abuse.It didn't stop the bully attacks but it lessened them.We refused to by stand and look away when someone else got hurt by a bully. Now in an attempt to reduce school violence they are trying to eliminate by-standing.In a school where one anti bystander program was started, it was found when even 1 person in a crowd steps into a altercation,and tries to stop it,it was said 90% of the attacks were thwarted.
So how many of you were beaten up for being gay or transgendered or just different?
How many of you stood up and refused to by-stand when a bully(any bully) threatened a friend,a kid or or stranger who was like you or different than you ?
Just some thoughts I had that were inspired by the Jesusland article.
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