Good vibes, thoughts, prayers, mojo requested

[u4ic]

Tomorrow I will be the service leader for a service at my UU church.

I have not been in front of an 'audience' in 8 years.

A year ago, I was so sick I couldn't have even imagined getting to a service, never mind leading one.

It's been a long, slow ascension (and I still have a long way to go), but it is truly something else for me to be doing this. It feels like after 5 long years, I'm coming back into the world again, having a voice once again, feeling useful.

I would appreciate any good thoughts/vibes my way. I hope I have the (physical) strength for the whole thing! :-)

[NMDemDist2]

1. you'll do fine u4! all the folks at UU will be feeding you strength and

love. it will be GREAT!

[u4ic]

6. Absolutely, they will be feeding me

positive energy!

Thank you, AZDEM! :hug:

[Bluestar]

2. Sending you light and energy

I've been going through something similar--been sick for 4 years. I get strength from your story--maybe my healing is also near. I wish you love and light--you will do fine!

Bluestar

[u4ic]

7. Hi Bluestar

I'm sorry to hear you've been ill. :-( If I may ask, what is it?

I hope healing is around the corner for you, too.:hug: Dealing with chronic illness is so difficult; if it doesn't let up, it's constant, it's so draining; if you have small remissions/positive steps than crash again and again, it's hard to trust the next time you feel better, and always wonder how long it will last.

I will include you in my meditations. If you ever need to talk, please feel free to PM me.

Thank you for your good wishes. :hug:

[yellerpup]

3. Love, light and steady ascention

Your audience will buoy you up and speed your healing. I embrace you with love and healing. :loveya:

[u4ic]

8. Hi yellerpup!

Thank you so very much for your support. It means a lot. :hug:

[I Have A Dream]

4. I'm so happy and excited for you, u4ic! This is a wonderful step...

that you're taking! I have been sending you energy and will do so even more tomorrow.

:)

[u4ic]

10. Hi I Have A Dream!

I can feel the energy - that must be you !! :D

I'm very happy, in a good mood tonight, not too nervous. I'm so glad that I'm doing this...I feel like an old debutante, finally coming out into the world (again...)

Thank you very much, your support has been so invaluable to me. :hug:

[Grateful for Hope]

5. This is something to celebrate u4ic

Am sending positive vibes and thoughts your way.

:applause:

[u4ic]

11. Thank you, Hope2006!

It is much appreciated! :hug:

I feel so much support from this group, I just want to :cry: but those are of joy.

If I get nervous at all, I'll remember your clapping hands smilie. That's the symbol for everyone cheering me on from this group! :bounce:

[Grateful for Hope]

16. Bless you, u4ic! n/t

[BlueIris]

9. Aw. I will send lots of positive thoughts your way.

I'm burning a candle for Happiness later, and will think of you.

[u4ic]

12. Hi BlueIris!

Thank you very much for your good thoughts. :hug:

I see someone (YOU) who is making much progress in her own healing, and not only in her own, but reaching out to others, to support them.

That is a wonderful gift. I think that once we can include others again after a traumatic time/or because our healing expands to include others - it means you're definitely on the right track. Including others, after serious mistrust issues, is a huge step forward.

I, too, wish you all the best, BlueIris. I know your struggles have been incredibly tough. Venus is in Taurus now, I hope that might bring some wonderful feelings of love and creativity for you. :pals:

(oh...and Jupiter is in Scoprio opposite Taurus. Maybe some lucky breaks will come your way! :bounce:

[villager]

13. Peace be with you! ;-)

I'm sure it'll be great!

[u4ic]

14. Thank you, villager!

:hug:

[rumpel]

15. Hi there

I feel like a hermit myself the past...at least 4 years, so I appreciate what you say.
A few months ago. I went to a meeting and thought my heart is going to jump onto the table.

I'll ask for your guides inspirations to shine through - and send you my vibes, too.

:)

[u4ic]

19. Hi rumpel!

Thank you!:-)

Is it illness that has been plaguing you, too?

Was that a UU meeting that you were referring to?

[rumpel]

24. Actually with me it is more of a struggle

to get a very large project going addressing issues of illiteracy for young adults and kids. 6th year in the making so far -

and the meeting was related to that...

:)

[ebayfool]

17. Been visualizing your success all day, u4ic ...

kicking this for updates! Details? How'd it go?

[u4ic]

20. Hi djmaddox1!

Thank you so very much! :hug:

[Metta]

18. See the whole thing going just as you want it.

Then, ask for "that or something better for the highest good of all concerned." That visualizing helps me a lot.

[u4ic]

21. Hi Metta

That's what I did - and a lot of rehearsing. :-)

[Metta]

28. Please let us know how it went.

:thumbsup: :hi: :donut:

[I Have A Dream]

29. Hi, Metta. She added a post below telling how it went.

:hug:

[Metta]

32. Thanks, Dream.

Mu!

[u4ic]

22. Thank you so very much, everyone!

I could feel so much positive energy around me, even before I left this morning, and I knew it was from this wonderful group. :grouphug:

It went so incredibly well!

I had energy to spare to do the service. The getting up and sitting down again, repeatedly...no problem. The standing...no problem.

Everyone was incredibly supportive, and I had so many people come up to me afterwards to express their gratitude and praise. I had people commenting on many aspects of what I did, so I felt it was an all round good job. I am so deeply honoured...I can't even begin to say how much this day means to me.

I had felt before that I hadn't brought any skills with me from my 'previous' (ie before this sickness) life. When all one can do is literally put one foot in front of the other (when I wasn't bedridden), it's easy to lose both skills and self esteem. I reconnected with so much of it today. I felt like I had the skills...they just needed to be dug up, and used once again. It also helps that I was in a wonderful supportive community, one that I can test out the waters.

All the support definitely helped my self esteem.

I also reconnected with children today. (I've got three 5th house planets, including the Sun, and 2 are in Leo) I hadn't been around children for so long (I used to love kids), and I not only reconnected through the story I read for them, but through a friend's child later (she's 4), at lunch. I hadn't met her before, and by mid lunch she was already calling me 'auntie'. I was so touched. Their creativity and energy fed mine.

It has been a wonderful day...once again, thanks to everyone here for their good thoughts/vibes/energy. I can't even begin to express my appreciation. :loveya: :hug:

[rumpel]

25. So happy for you.

Little by little - the strength in mind and body will return.

:hi:

[u4ic]

34. Thanks, rumpel!

:hug:

[I Have A Dream]

26. I'm so happy that it went so well, u4ic.

I knew that you'd be able to handle everything with grace and dignity.

:hug:

[u4ic]

37. I even got quite a few laughs, too!

Thanks, IHAD! :hug:

[Metta]

31. Looks like the sky's the limit.

However as they say, it ain't on the table until it's on the table. :thumbsup: :donut: :donut: :loveya: :hug:

[u4ic]

38. Thanks, Metta!

:hug:

[Grateful for Hope]

35. You deserved to have this experience

and, all we did was to cheer you on. I think you are an amazing person, and one that I am honored to know through this internet group.

[u4ic]

39. Thank you, Hope2006!

Your support means so very much to me!

You are truly an inspiring person, yourself! :hug:

[Grateful for Hope]

40. You are welcome!

:hug: back at ya!

[u4ic]

23. p.s.

I'm also doing a bit for next week's service, too, which is a joint effort between 5 of us. I wrote, and will be reading, a meditation. :-)

[lildreamer316]

27. Love to you!

I'm sure you will continue to ascend.

[u4ic]

33. Thanks, lildreamer316!

:hug:

[LiberalEsto]

30. congratulations!

I'm glad to hear it went well.

I started leading services at my UU church (Sugarloaf UU in Germantown, MD) a few years ago after being so shy all my life that I didn't even talk in classes in college. Somehow, with the help of a supportive minister and supportive friends in the congregation, all has gone well. If someone had told me even 5 years ago that this was in my future, I would not have believed them.

UUism is wonderful. Best of luck in leading future services.

LibE

[u4ic]

36. Thanks, LiberalEsto!

:hug:

I'm so glad you are able to participate, too! That's wonderful that you overcame your shyness with their support! :applause:

It really is such an affirming faith.

I hope to do more in the future. :bounce:

[Sanity Claws]

41. Congratulations and thanks for posting

This is a great story and a great reminder of various things a person can do to heal themselves.

[u4ic]

42. Thank you, in search of sanity!

:hug:

[u4ic]

43. Forgot about one thing

I was also to look at a place yesterday...I had hopes, but alas, it didn't work out. Whoever designed those new suburbs really need to be taken out and given a good shaking.

For 30 blocks, there is NO other intersecting road that cuts through to the main road. :wtf:

I can't even imagine my (car) gas bills living there.