Broken Dreams - Part 2 (Orginally, "My Wife's Diagnosis") and a rant

[The Straight Story]

I wanted to take some time tonight, now six months later, to update you and say some good things - and to look back and assess where we are now (closer to a cure I am sure since dems won!!!!!!)

Original thread:
http://www.democraticunderground.com/discuss/duboard.php?az=view_all&address=364x1144775

I am not looking for sympathy here (it's nice I suppose in a moral support way, but fixes nothing), but now that it has all sunk in, election is over, etc, I took some time tonight to look back and to the future - and wanted to share.

SOMETHING prompted me to write this tonight, a trigger event. And it was not the election, though that would have been enough I suppose. It could be that my wife has gotten worse in some ways, and is sick in bed with the flu and pneumonia. But no - it was something totally different which made me think.

And think real hard. About a lot of things.

My son tonight made a website (he is the one I did not see for 8 years, looong story I have shared elsewhere). He is 20. With a daughter barely 2 months old. And with dreams.

I got issues with him, indeed. But his site caused me to ponder it all once again, and to define my great American dream.

He has a lot of dreams, yet he has little money, not much education, and until you all gave me great video links he was a hard core republican.

So he went and made a site, http://moneyforme.homestead.com/index.html , hoping to cash in on the internet and make his dreams come true (and I don't begrudge him that, many have done similar things and made a ton - I say go for it, worst you can do is fail and learn.)

Hell, I would like to get money pouring in - and that is where this thread came from - WHY? What would I do with lots of money if *I* had it all of the sudden?

----And that is why I am in tears now.

What would I do? Would I buy that cool car to impress people? Would I buy that lake house mansion? What would I do with a ton of money?

I would stay home. I would be here everyday for my wife. I would take my little girl shopping and buy her silly things we could play with. I would make both their lives as happy as I could by being there for them and having the bills paid and some left over to do the things we could together before we cannot do them anymore.

Now I love working, I am a work-a-holic. But right now, I am not. AND FINALLY I SEE WHAT SO MANY OTHERS NEED TO FREAKING SEE especially those on the right: we need to fund the Family Medical Leave Act so that people can be there for the ones they love when needed.

BUT NO - the RW sees people like me as lazy, wanting a free pass to sit around at home.

Today I did the dishes, more than once. I made dinner for the wife and daughter. I took my daughter bowling with the other kids from the virtual academy (we home school), I took out the trash, took care of the dogs, played with my daughter, and a lot more. I worked harder then I did at my job by far - all the while trying to fend off depression and worry over bills, etc.

You RW fucks care about a kid until they get here, then dump em.

My little girl is faced with having a mom who cannot always be there for her because she is sick. A daddy who is taking time off work to care for them both. A daddy who worries he won't have the money to make it, to keep on the lights and keep food on the table. YOU ASSHOLES are willing to spend trillions on a war that kills untold thousands but you won't spend a damned dime for those here in your own country trying to live a life of 'family values'.

I have a simple dream, as does my wife now. To simply pay the bills and see our little girl grow up. And my simple dream is to be here for them both during this damned hard time.

I respect others have different dreams than mine. I am damned glad they do. I hope the best for them, and I pray they can reach them.

You want to know another reason the repugs failed - it is because they don't give a damn about people like me. My elbows are so sore I can barely lift a 12 pack of diet mt dew, yet I refrain from going to the Dr because it will cost us more money, then xrays, etc.

Who is gonna be here for me?? No one - and that is thanks to you fucking repugs who preach your asses off about being all Christian like, and how we need to pass laws based on the Bible (by outlawing gay marriage, choice, et al) and then forget about all the rest like loving others as you love yourself (ie, social programs).

YOU leave vets homeless, in a psychological mess, you leave families shattered with your wars where little kids have no mommy/daddy left because one was killed in your damned war. And you don't do jack shit for them.

Fuck you.

You wanna fund something? Fund the American citizens who are working their asses off caring for their loved ones - be they gay or straight. Fund research. Fund the dreams of those not lucky enough to have a person they married be healthy and bringing in tons of cash like you and yours.

My wife has a degree in psychology, and art. I have a GED. I did what you said to do - I educated myself and worked hard. I climbed your damn corporate ladder, only to be stabbed in the back by it and facing I don't know what.

I got a simple dream left now. To be able to have a simple damned life and take care of my wife and daughter, and I cannot live that dream by leaving my house each day.

It ain't because I am lazy as you would like to think - it is because I am trapped between working for a corporation who won't let me work from home each day (even though I could) and your damned pro-corporate policies that allows such companies HUGE tax breaks while they screw over the little guy. Not to mention how they screw the environment.

No, I am your enemy. Little ole me who just wants to do the right thing for others. I don't need fancy new tv's, ipods, computers, etc.

No wonder you lost. You suck.

I am going to bed soon, and hoping like hell I don't get something or other shut off.

YOU care more about Iraqi's than you do your own people at home. You blame people like me for making 'poor choices' when I had no choice in it all - all the while bailing out government funding for wars and your big corporations.

Screw You.

[The Straight Story]

1. Kicking for the evening crowd and funding for FMLA! (nt)