Well things are going a little better now. Got a job.

[Locut0s]

I probably don't post here enough for anyone to remember who I am. I've had life long issues with anxiety and depression and have dropped in and out of university probably 5 or 6 times because of it, ruining a 4.0 GPA going in. At any rate that's all past history. Some time back I got a job at 7-11 and worked my way up to assistant manager and acting manager. However the stress of the position combined with a return of my anxiety issues caused me to start drinking. I was drinking about a bottle of vodka every few days at the worst point. Well obviously that couldn't last too long as I ended up walking off the job. Long story short, while I have not gotten over my anxiety and depression issues I have made some big strides since then. For one I stopped drinking, except at family functions and the like, and I have lost 65 pounds down to 195 from 260 (I now work out hard every day). Yesterday I also landed my first job since I quite. It's nothing special, just a sales associate position at a local Futureshop (the equivalent of Best Buy in the US) but it's better than nothing I guess. I'm planning to look for something better while working there. I also have a few more clear-cut goals I've lined up for myself. One is to get out of my parents hours, still living at home with ma and pa at 28. Another is to get a girlfriend, social anxiety as seen to this not happening yet in my life I'm afraid :( The last is to save up some more money and go back to school once most other aspects of my life are in order. I already have about 55K in savings from the time I worked in 7-11, which I'm not touching, so I'm lucky in this respect I can probably go back to get a degree at any time really but I don't feel comfortable yet. That degree will likely be in computer science and mathematics which I already have about 1/4 of from previous attempts. Either that or Physics, or any one of several sciences I really enjoy (One of my problems is I have too many interests lol). So all in all things are starting to look a little brighter. I still deal with a certain amount depression and anxiety but it's at a fairly manageable level all in all.

Oh and yes I have been on meds for some time now, 3 or 4 years, which does help. I saw one counselor when I was at my worst but she said that they would not treat me till I stopped drinking, which I have now. I have thought of going back to counselling, which I may do in the long run.

[laylah]

1. I am so happy to hear

of all the positive changes in your life! Congratulations on your new job and good luck! :hug:

[Skittles]

2. it's good to see you back, Locut0s!

:hi:

[Bonobo]

3. Resistance is futile now. You have joined the collective. nt

[a kennedy]

4. Sounds like you're on the right road.......good luck and stop by here

often for encouragement and well wishes..... :thumbsup: :hi: :grouphug: :yourock: :woohoo: :applause:

[Nay]

5. It's so good to hear that you are doing so much better now, Locut0s.

I remember you, and remember worrying about you, too. (Oldtime ma and grandma here.) Some advice on the girlfriend: go for the nice, quiet, low-key women who aren't drama queens! A drama queen will def give you a setback.

[Locut0s]

8. Haha lol thanks for the advise! I'm sure this is something most guys of my type...

Learn the hard way. I would love to find a girl friend who shares my interests, sciences, computers and the like which stereotypically speaking would likely put them in the category you mention. But it's hard to find someone like this and often those that catch your eye the most may be the most I'll suited to you. Not that I really know what I'm talking about here.

[tomm2thumbs]

6. Cheers to all the moving and shaking

Sometimes it is more important that you get there, than when you get there!

[Locut0s]

7. Thanks for all the support guys! I've gotten everything from kind support to I should off myself....

This being the internet I expect that kind of thing but it's always nice to get kind support! It helps!

[Odin2005]

9. Congrats!

:)

[The Straight Story]

10. Awesome - landed me one as well

Temp position, had orientation today. Start in the AM.

Congrats and good luck!

TSS is in a happy mood :) Baby girl is home and start a new job. Wooot!

[grantcart]

11. 65 pounds - great job

your doing great keep it up