I don’t want to disappear without living the life I want to live…

[WCGreen]

This was a proclamation of life from Dr. Sweets, a character on the TV Show Bones. He made this declaration to his girlfriend shortly after watching a young man die in his arms.

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When I was spiraling out of control, half a lifetime away now, from my binge and blackout time drinking, I think I was doing it to avoid getting on with my life. I was afraid I would make the wrong decision about what I wanted to do and so I was paralyzed by keeping all my imagined options open.

I had so much hope, as did many others over the years have had for me, but I lacked that crucial sense of direction. So I embraced with gusto, I guess, the great excuse of my life; alcohol abuse.

https://mylungtransplantyears.wordpress.com/about/


the newest post to my lung transplant blog. This is a long one. I get into more about my alcoholism and my fears of the unknown.

[Captain Hilts]

1. Hang tough, buddy! nt

[WCGreen]

2. I'm trying...

Just getting really frustrated that now that the weather is getting nice I can't get out as much as I would like..

[Captain Hilts]

3. You've got a goal to get out there.

I'm pulling for you, pal.

[kgnu_fan]

4. Your writing touched me --- would you please keep writing and let us know

[WCGreen]

5. It's very theraputic for me to write about all that is happening...

[blm]

6. with you, my bud

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[onpatrol98]

7. Hang In There!!!

[WCGreen]

10. Trying too...

[CaliforniaPeggy]

8. It's your best yet!

I know I keep saying this, but dammit, it's true...

For what it's worth, I've got your back!

K&R

[WCGreen]

9. Thanks Peggy,...

[WCGreen]

11. Kick for the evening crowd...