Reply #77: Ok, let me clarify a few things [View All]

[SweetZombieJesus]

She dumped me, citing quitting school as the reason. I accepted it, and decided to move on. Two weeks later, I find a letter on my windshield from her, telling me that everything she had said was just b.s. rationalizations for her to break up with me because she was scared and she had relationship issues, and that she wanted me back, if I could forgive her. I had misgivings at first, because she stung me the first time, but I decided that I liked her enough to give it another shot. So we get back together, things are, from my perspective (i.e. not a mindreader) fine, and then when I come back from a weekend visiting friends, its like she was spirited away by the Gestapo. The only reason I knew she was still around was because she returned two of my movies after I'd finally given up on trying to get her to talk to me and tell me why, and settled on asking for my movies back. Not a word was spoken by either of us, no goodbyes, just handing me the bag with the movies in them, and I haven't seen her since.

As for assigning blame: Prior to Jessica, I've always analyzed the deaths of these relationships to death to find out what I did wrong, and this time I realized that I had nothing to beat myself up about. I tried to make it work, I backed off when she said she thought things were going too fast, and it still wasn't enough for her. So I don't blame myself for that failure, that one's on her. But it's still disappointing nonetheless, because when it was good, it was really, really good.