Reply #267: I've tried praying that way. Did it for years. [View All]

[Jamastiene]

so there is no point in arguing any more. I've done everything I can to change the situation and it is actually getting worse. So apparently I have received a firm no then. I guess I am to take it that god wants me to feel like an unloved worthless piece of shit loser for the rest of my life. That's no way to build any faith. I'll never worship a god that would put me on this earht and then deny me basic love and compassion in my personal life. We have apparently agreed to disagree. I cannot worhsip your god as I have to accept loneliness and isolation and ridicule as my station in life. So then this means god feels the same way as those who enjoy humiliating me so much. Nothing like being hated by god to top it all off. I know I am not a bad person, but to be called the types of names I have been called and to be viewed by the vast majority the way I am viewed, and to have no hope of every having a full completelife, I don't see any hope there. Am I to admit that I am as worthless as everyone I know tells me I am and drop to my knees and learn how to perform fellatio on any man who tells me to to please god? It sure looks like that's the message I am getting from him and everyone I know. Apparently my being raped REALLY WAS my answer from god like I suspected.


BTW, I live in Richmond County not Rockingham County. Rockingham is the city I live in. Richmond is the county. But both counties are actually the same in the mentality. I should probably post my home address too so I can give god what he wants and get raped again.