Reply #7: I Definitely Agree That My Mental State Improved DRASTICALLY... [View All]

[arwalden]

... about 15 years ago when I finally realized that it was all a hoax and a myth.

Guilt? GONE!
Paranoia? GONE!
Regret? GONE!
Disappointment? GONE!
Fear? GONE!

My life and mental attitude has gotten 1000% better. I shudder to think at how much time and energy I absolutely WASTED actually PRAYING for things. "Dear-Lord-Get-Me-A-Better-Job" "Dear-Jesus-Help-Me-Find-Love" "God-Show-Me-My-Keys" "Jesus-Make-Me-Straight" (Can you imagine?)

I was wasting time just waiting for some magical gift from heaven to appear on my doorstep. I was wasting time wondering if I had been good enough.

Worst of all... in wondering if I had been "good enough", I too tried to "fool God" into believing that I was good by dragging down and putting down and being harshly judgemental of others so that I could look better.

-- Allen