Hey... I need to talk something out for a bit. [View All]

[Writer]

I hope that this will help me focus on the writing I will do this week... I have 25 pages to write this week and another 30+ to write next week. I also have reading and a little bit of BS work on top of that.

I've been very down since last week's "heated exchange." I know what the Prof. did was awful - truly awful. Perhaps only now I'm realizing just how awful it was. Talk about a way to rape someone's dignity! While I logically understand that what he does not define me as a student or as a woman, I still feel like lesser a person. Like I'm less worthy of respect. I'm trying to find other professors and accomplishments to focus on in order to keep me looking forward, but of course that's difficult as it's only my first year in this program (I don't have enough other accomplishments under my belt yet.)

One thing that helps me is that I know that there are prof's in the department who have my back and are keeping an eye on things. I'm very grateful for that. I also have the support of my cohort and of other doc students - that also is a relief. I know that I'm not alone, but I still feel so fucking worthless. What can I focus on in order to pick myself back up and be able to work?

Trying to move on,

~Writer~