Reply #41: At this point it is about 20 years behind me! [View All]

[demgurl]

I appreciate your comments but I have come a long way. I can now use the 'rape' word and I gave up the 'victim' word so that my rapist would no longer have any hold over me.

Yoko Ono had a wish tree that you could submit wishes on and here are the basic wishes I submitted: I wished peace for my Dad who beat me when I was pregnant with my youngest child. I know his anger is something he has never been able to control and so I hope something enters his life so that he may know tranquility. For my Mom I wish true happiness and lots of love. I wrote that I knew she embezzled tens of thousands of dollars from me but that is because of her beliefs in material goods. I said I knew hopw lonely she must be and I hope she would find the path I have found in life. For my rapist I wrote that whatever demons he has I hope he forgave himeself and hope he finds what he needs to lead a life without whatever caused him to do what he did that night.

I have found forgiveness and wish a better path for those who have not treated me with respect in the past. This does not mean I find the subject funny or that there are no consequences to our actions. I know that my karma brought their actions to me but now they must deal with their karma for what they have done. I am never to be a part of that and do not want to be. I have dealt with my part and that is where it ends for me.

Thank you so much for your kind and warm words. You are wonderful.

In Metta,

demgurl