Why do I have to be so right all the time?

[Kire]

It's gotten to be a problem for a while.

[donco6]

1. It must suck to be you.

:)

[Bronco69]

2. I'm so right that when I am wrong it really IS a big deal! n/t

[terrya]

3. If that were true, you shouldn't have to feel the need to come here...

and say it.

[Kire]

4. It's not true. It's a lie.

I just believe it so much. I keep waiting for (and challenging) people to prove me wrong, but they're just not right, either. And, then I get emotional, and scared. I'm like a little kid, and I can throw tantrums. Maybe I should post this in the mental health board. Anger is definitely a problem with me. The scariest moment of my life was when I "hulked out" under the influence of LSD in 1997. Since then, I was diagnosed with schizo-affective disorder, and the first psychologists who saw me in the hospital said I was "over-stimulated". I was doing pretty well for seven years, but since last summer I have been unemployed and my medications have been played with quite a bit. Then my Cobra insurance coverage ran out in November, and now I have a private plan that I need my mother to pay for. My old psycho-analyst doesn't participate in my new plan, but I finally started seeing a new therapist (a family systems one, whatever that is). Our third session is on Tuesday.

I don't know. I just got into two or three arguments (including one with Skinner of all people) in various places on DU last night. I like what he says sometimes that you shouldn't post "especially when you think the person deserves to hear how right you are". I just hope he sees this and is maybe a little less inclined to tombstone me. I was thinking quite a bit today about how I could open a new credit card and donate some money to DU for repentance or somehting, but I'm already having trouble paying the bills I have now.

In my horoscope in the local paper today it said: "To be graceful in the face of change is more important than to be perfect." I liked that.

I guess I just need a hug.

Thanks,

Kire