Phew!!! Just had to explain to an attractive young exchange student [View All]

[Mara Steele]

from Taiwan that I was a lesbian, and exactly what that meant... Christ, talk about awkward. It might have been comical if I hadn't been under such duress! :P

But even across language and cultural barriers, I think she understood. She did seem a little taken aback initially, but thankfully still friendly after.

Now all there is to figure out is... Is she REALLY attracted to me like I think she is? It's almost hard to believe, but that feeling(delusion??) is pretty unmistakable.

(Or did I COMPLETELY scare away this pretty, young, Asian woman with my descriptions of being a gay and a "tomboy"? I hope not, because I would really enjoy just being her friend.)

I would NEVER make a move unless I was totally sure, but she is very open and doesn't seem to mind a lot of my gestures, which naturally tend to be somewhat physical and intimate. I mean -- I absolutely respect peoples' personal spaces, but I do touch sometimes to make a point, or to look at a piece of jewelry, if I feel they are comfortable with such a gesture.

We've got plans to go to a movie or something tomorrow, and she seemed like she wanted me to take her down to the ocean for a swim, too (though that was before the "big truth" came out.)

Well, I just wanted to write down the experience for the sake of my own calm... I'm still a little nervous about everything, it all happened so quickly! Don't have much invested in this, since I only just met her... but it's all a little new & exciting to me, + the cultural thing makes it more complicated, too.

Phew.... :D Thanks for listening, guys! :hi: