Reply #20: Hi Pearl [View All]

[jumptheshadow]

I was diagnosed with PTS in October 2001. It was due to events surrounding 9/11, but I can't go into all the details here. For various reasons it may be years before I can talk about all the details. I have only skimmed over the events in my past posts.

I found myself having a completely involuntary reaction to stimuli like sirens, airplanes and helicopters. I would go into a shock-like state, often followed by a panic attack. I had difficulty descending into the subways. Literally I had to fight to get down those stairs. Luckily my partner has good insurance and I got great care. I took a few months off and stayed in my brother's quiet suburban home in upstate New York.

I moved back to NY about 14 months ago. Six months ago I saw the doctor. She told me I am making a good recovery and evaluated me as being at about 80 percent. Having a time-consuming, responsible job with my own bright, pretty office helped. I have found, however, that I must live life quietly. For me, that means watching comedies or goofy movies that have no violence, strolls in the Botanic Garden, meditation and listening to relaxing music (often light classical). Mildly scented candles with soft fragrances help. Long baths soothe me.

Certain stresses related to the blackout brought a temporary setback. But I know I am much better now. I'm probably at 95 percent. I can travel the subways without fear. Sirens and helicopters still bother me but they don't induce shock or panic. I notice when the city goes on high alert. But I'm okay.

I am back to watching the political news again. I turn off anything related to the war. I can't imagine what those poor folks are going through. My heart goes out to them.