Another "My Family is 100% Fundy / Freeper" Thread (Please Contribute) [View All]

[Ladyhawk]

Deep down I really want to love my family and allow them into my life, but it has gone wrong so many times I am afraid. My mother and I have done the counseling thing umpteen times and she never does get the "boundaries" issue. In her mind she owns everything (including me) and is right about everything. She never says, "I'm sorry."

My brother loves Ayn Rand and Rush Limbaugh and thinks cruel things are humorous. He worked as a correctional officer on death row at San Quentin and thought it was amusing to sing, "Pop, pop, fizz, fizz," as he passed the inmates' cells. Of course, back then we had the gas chamber.

I have so many fundamental differences with these people that I don't know what to feel. And where my mother is concerned, it's even worse because she treats me like an object. I really can't stand it when I go over to her house and she's watching Fox News or Pat Robertson. When I ride with my brother Rush Limbaugh is on the radio. He carries around Atlas Shrugged as if it were some kind of bible.

I am full of bad feelings for these people, but I think the bad feelings are interfering with my recovery. Still, a part of me says, "Don't trust them...they say one thing and do another." That part of me is right. They aren't trustworthy.

Where...how can you draw the line? I don't want to feel antagonistic, but I want the right to be my own person, to admit that I'm a member of moveon.org, that I'm a Democrat, an atheist, etc. without being pounced on.

My mother thinks my lack of faith in Jesus is what is causing all my problems.

My brother thinks I don't trust him enough to tell him the issues. He's right. Over the years, he hasn't exactly come across as the trustworthy type.

Part of the struggle is that I still need money from mother because of disabilities. Tonight she asked if I wanted to move home...hell no!

If you know your family members can be dangerous to your mental health, how do you keep them at bay without making yourself bitter? Yeah, that's what I was trying to say. It took me awhile to get to it.