My Kundalini Rose Five Years Ago [View All]

[FDRLincoln]

Five years ago next week, my kundalini rose. It was unexpected...not something I was trying to work on or anticipating.

The first six months were bliss/ecstasy. But then the hard spiritual work began, especially over the last two years.

I find myself at another crossroads as the anniversary approaches. My spiritual energies are increasing again, and I feel like I'm about to take another big step forward. However, it is going to involve a lot of courage on my part, breaking away from old things for example.

My spirit guides are "strongly suggesting" that I write a book about my experiences. I already have a 140 page completed manuscript describing the first part of my breakthrough, but it has been sitting on my computer for a couple of years because it felt incomplete. But over the last week, during dreamwork and waking meditation, the path on how to complete the book has become clear. I know exactly how to do it.

The problem is this: to finish it will require BRUTAL honesty, with myself but also with and about important people in my life, including my wife. My wife has been 90% supportive through my process. We have an excelent marriage, but we have a few strong bones of contention, one of them directly related to the breakthrough, and finishing the book will require me to address this directly and in a way that is likely to make her very angry.

So I find myself torn. I feel like I MUST finish the book. But doing so could cause a rupture in my marriage. What should I do?

I know the answer. I have to finish the book, in the way that I need to do so, even if it causes problems. But I am hesitating.

Any thoughts would be appreciated.