Reply #20: I'm truly sorry. Maybe this will help a little. [View All]

[OffWithTheirHeads]

In 1990 I got stuck in the middle of an ugly civil suit. I was not at fault but that does not matter much in the legal system. The guy with the most expensive lawyer usually prevails. Long story short, It bankrupted me. I lost my house, my car, everything I had worked for, My job and my marriage (temporarily). I can't tell you what a stress filled, degrading experience it was. I contemplated suicide almost daily. Ended up sleeping on one of my few remaining friends couches for about 6 months. Slowly, I'm talking about 6 years slow, I managed to put my life back together.

Whenever things looked hopeless, I would think of the shit other people in the world were going through. Like in Bosnia or Zimbabwe. I would realize that, no matter how bad things looked to me, I still lived like a prince compared to them. It helped, putting things in perspective.

Crawling out of the hole in this country is a motherfucker. You are right, the deck is stacked big time against poor people in our society. I am now in a position where I can piss people off by spending too much on a dishwasher. Many wonderful things have happened since then and I learned a valuable lesson.

Life ebbs and flows. Sometimes it's bad, sometimes it's good. The one thing you can be certain of, is that no matter where you are today, life will change. I will never consider suicide again since that realization. I would have missed soooo much.

You have to be very careful right now. The system is designed to punish you harshly for the slightest misstep. Tread carefully, keep your nose clean, do the right thing, and be aware that many of us out here do care. Sometimes, when things can't get any worse, they can only get better.

Good luck to you my friend.