Reply #65: It's being "different", it doesnt matter if it's gay, or fat, or in my case [View All]

[comtec]

I was in special ed.
I can not ever explain the hell that other kids put us through, being in "Special Ed."
It's not that i'm any dumber, in fact my IQ is well above average.
But I have (always) had a bit of an ager management problem... I would regularly beat the living crap out of my tormentors.
The problem for me being two fold.
One - I had black outs when I raged back then. i have literally no control, and only "woke up" after it was all done
two - the administrators were fucking idiots. I got yelled at by the fucking principal and vice P many times!

oh yeah and >I< the fucking VICTIM of the bullying, A L W A Y S got suspended and sent home for DEFENDING MYSELF from a GROUPS of bullies!!!

In the end what stopped it all cold was that my parents FORCED (lord knows how) the administration to start suspending the OTHER kid(s) ... um.. also.

So those little fucks were at least getting equal punishment as I was.
*mutters darkly about being punished fro self defense*

In high school the bullying actually stopped when I was so pissed off I was about to take on an entire crowd in my sophomore year.
I am fortunate that my gym teacher, when he arrived, told the crowd to piss off.

After that people left me alone. In my junior year (I was in drama - SHOCK) things went much better, and I spent most of my HS years with the stoners, who are generally a very pleasant bunch of people :)

In college....the change is indescribable, but thankfully everyone here has gone to either JC (like me) or a real college.


but the bullying in elementary school was hell, worse than hell, and the fact that the administration NEVER did anything to protect me in any way has made me distrustful of all authority.

I'm bi, and only realized this a handful of years ago. Looking back I always have been, but I was so scared to admit it! I had enough problems being different, i didn't want THAT one added on top of it.
I wonder how I would have turned out, socially, if I had accepted the reality of it earlier on?