undergroundpanther
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Fri Oct-17-08 09:55 PM
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I told him that I feel a wave of depression coming,I see the small signs it is coming back,that seemed to not register.I thought it strange.What did he tell me to do? Take a warm bath with sea salt??? I know that traditionally helps some people.
For me it is trigger central.There laying in a tub, nude, a situation where you cannot jump out of it easy with just a shower curtain ..I feel too vulnerable in a bathtub and the flesh in my face fills me with a profound sadness because I don't like this body it's a flesh cage I barely can tolerate it. For me a bath,that is not 'relaxing'.
He claimed I have toxins.Well if that is so why do I have to remove it in bath form? I shower, I like it better because I stand up, it feels safer..Besides what toxins? How come he was so vague? Some toxins you need anti toxins or is he just grasping at straws or selling me a new age fix for my efforts at warning him about real issues?
And another thing that bugs me about that dismissive kind of shit is it reminds me of when I was a kid and the incident with my father happened. I did the right thing. I tried to tell the local sheriff what happened to me but he didn't listen,to me at all he just basically dismissed me and told me to drink a glass of warm milk.(this was before there was a 911 for emergency calls)
I kinda got that kind of dismissive air from my shrink this time. I was warning him. Now I am breaking out,my scalp and feet are a mess because the stress is building..and I am feeling urges to cut again.
I don't like it.
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Sat Oct-18-08 10:08 PM
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1. I wish I could help you. Try to be kind to yourself. |
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