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I didn't 'grow up'. I still don't know how to deal with people who piss me off. Hell- I can't even manage my money!

What you're saying is a great example of what I had to deal with- "it's part of life" "get over it" "grow up" etc, etc, etc.

The only part of your post that was in any way right is that this is a good example of how to learn what not to be. I'll agree with you there...

...the problem is, until she did to me what she did, I fairly worshipped this woman. The kind of betrayal I've dealt with- and not once, but again and again and again- isn't something you 'grow out of'. It's not something you 'learn to deal with'.

SHE's told me to 'get over it', and it's a great deal like a rapist telling his victim to get over it. And in many, many ways, I was emotionally and psychologically raped.

I had to leave the circle of friends- bad seeds, all- that I had surrounded myself with and bonded with, so I could deal with what she did. Then, just as I reestablished another circle of friends that were helping me through all of it, my parents pulled the rug out from under my feet again and I lost that group of friends.

I don't have 'college buddies'. I don't have an 'old high school acquaintance'. I DON'T HAVE WHAT SHE DOES.

She took those things away from me, and I'll NEVER have them.

Somehow... hate isn't strong enough of a word.