Reply #30: tell me. and i ask to be informed and looking for an answer. [View All]

[seabeyond]

i wa sittin in a convenient store parking lot waiting for my boys. a truck with white guy pulls in. his music blaring, windows open. (also relevent i live in panhandle of texas). i hear the repeated lyrics along the lines of .... n*gga is a ho, n*gga is a ho, n*gga is a ho, i am gonna fuck your mama.

continually repeated. i look at boys walking into store to see if they heard, and if it is once again, me having a conversation about this. then i figure, they are old enough now, and we have talked about all these issues. they are well grounded, and educated, i can let this part of parenting go.

then i look at car next to me. a old grandma, mother and two little girls about 4 and 6. african american. listening to the repetitive lyrics as a white guy jumped out of the truck.

what was i suppose to feel for these women/girls in the car with this blaring?

i have thought about this often over the last year trying to put it into a perspective, but really, too many things in it for me, that bother me.

*lyrics arent exact cause it has been so long, but know they used n*gga repeatedly, ho and fuck your mama